Currently Playing Then Came the Night By Tommy Shane Steiner see related

- What if she's an angel? -

Hey guys what's up? it's 12:35 am my time and I can't sleep because today later on I start school, it's the first day. I'm gonna be a junior, tomorrow, officially, it's actually not scary. I just get nervous for some reason every year.  That's not the only thing on my mind though, a couple days ago, on friday. My mom and I were having lunch at Del Taco and this man walked in while we were eating. This man I see all the time lately, he's homeless, and he isn't a pranker, how do I know you ask, well because he has these pants, that have so many holes in them it isn't even worth wearing to you and I and all the holes are patched up with ducttape, his shoes he barely has and he wraps those in ducttape too, and his wallet with the 40 something cents that he has is made form ducttape, he looks like he hasn't taken a shower in 2 years  and he hast a long sleeve jacket....but half of the sleeve is gone in the middle on both sides and he has holes all over. Well, knowing me and my mom and how nice we are, we say him sitting there counting his change.....(he only had about 40 cents, it was mostly pennies) I asked my mom for 5 dollars and I walked up to him and gave it to him, and with the most angelic smile I have ever seen on an elderly man said "God bless you, ma'm" I looked and him and smiled as  much as I could because inside I just wanted to cry for him and said "you too, sir" I walked back over to my mom and started eating my burrito again trying so hard not to cry. Then while we were sitting there my mom said "Look" and I turned around and the rest of the people in the store were giving him money too. That man, because of what I started now has 25 dollars in that ducttape wallet. And the will to live one more day. Because of one person's actions, I don't know if that has ever happened to any of you, or if you have seen that, but it's amazing. It's so great how one person's actions doesn't neccesarily have to change the world but you can change one person's life. I'm listening to a song, I don't know if you guys have heard it or not, but it's called "What if she's an angel" by Tommy Shane Steiner and it talks about seeing people, who are homeless, an abused wife, and a little girl with cancer. And you don't do anything to help them, or give them a thought, and he says

There's a man standing on the corner 
With a sign sayin "will work for food"
You know the man 
You see him every morning
The one you never give your money to
You can sit there with your window rolled up
Wondering when the lights going to turn green
Never knowing what a couple more bucks 
In his pocket might mean

What if he's an angel sent here from Heaven
And he's making certain that you're doing your best
To take the time to help one another
Brother are you going to pass that test
You can go on with your day to day
Trying to forget what you saw in his face
Knowing deep down it could have been his saving grace
What if he's an angel

There's a man
There's a woman
Living right above you in apartment G
There's alot of noise coming from the ceiling
And it don't sound like harmony
You can sit there with your TV turned up
While the words and his anger fly
Come tomorrow when you see her with her shades on
Can you look her in the eye

What if she's sent here from heaven
And she's making certain that you're doing your best
To take the time to help one another
Brother are you going to pass that test
You can go on with your day to day
Trying to forget what you saw in her face
Knowing deep down it could have been her saving grace
What if she's an angel

A little girl on daddy's lap
Hiding her disease with a baseball cap
You can turn the channel
Most people do
But what if you were sitting in her daddy's shoes

Maybe she's an angel
Sent here from Heaven
And she's making certain you're doing your best
To take the time to help one another
Brother are you going to pass that test
You can go on with your day to day
Trying to forget what you saw in her face
Knowing deep down it could have been her saving grace
What if she's an angel.
That song makes me think more then anything. Because it's all true, and it goes with what just happened on Friday, I tell you something, it made me look at everything in my life and I'm gonna lve my life to the fullest and not take anything for granted anymore, because of that angelic man. One thing I know that I'm going to do is when I get my job and I have the money, I'm going to buy that man pants and a nice warm jacket. Because no one deserves that, we don't know why God plans these things, but maybe it's for the exact reason why I'm telling you guys about this, maybe to inspire you to help out one another, yeah, it's hard and people might think you are wierd or crazy, there was one lady in the restraunt and she looked at us  when she saw the man, she said, must be a new style. You don't want to be that type of person do you? And she must have felt foolish because right after she said that, I went over and gave him money, she was the only person in the restraunt that did not give him something. Yeah , there are crappy people in this world, but then there are people like all of us in that restruant, that obviously out number that one lady. So please guys, all  it takes is one person, remember that, just one person to maybe give the someone who had no will at all, the will to live again. Please help if you can. Give blood, donate to charities, give a homeless man 5 dollars, do SOMETHING. ALright, I'm out. I hope I've opened your eyes to helping others, at least just one person. 

Currently Playing Godsmack By Godsmack see related

- Moon baby - - -

Hey everyone, today is a good day. I have a concert I'm going to with like two really awesome people and I already got a phone call from my baby and it's not even 1pm yet. So I can just imagine what the rest of the day is going to be like. I have about 4 days until school starts and I am so excited, I love school (as we hear the word GEEK echoing) yes I know, but at least I have something to do during the day, summer is awesome cause I can wake up late and go to sleep late. But when I am awake, there is really nothing to do.....It's sad. I had an interview with gottschalks yesterday, and the lady said that I had all the qualities that they were looking for, they just had to finish therest of the intereviews of the day and she would give me a call next week if i'm selected, and then she started telling me about when training was and all that stuff and my mom said that that was a good sign. SO yay I'll have a job!!!!!!   It's awesome because that's really where I wanted to work, so yeah. OK, so I realized today that I have a really really really really really really really really really horny boyfriend. I mean, I kinda already knew that but today he REALLY showed me that he was. Well, I guess also not seeing your girlfriend for a year and not being able to do anythin because people wont leave you alone doesn't really contribute very helpfully either....lol. So yeah, I'm not gonna go into details but let's just say most of our convo was about christmas and presents, involving whipped cream and cherries...lol Sounds sexy huh? Yeah especially since..........we are going to......OHHHH I CAN'T TELL YOU!!! HAHAHA!!!!! lol, yeah, so that's pretty much it for right now, I'll prolly right in after the concert. Loves hugs and drugs....

Currently Reading Pandora: New Tales of the Vampires (New Tales of the Vampires) By Anne Rice see related

OK, hi guys, well I wrote a new song. Ashley wants to see it so I'm puttin it up here so she can see it and everyone else can too. HERE IT IS ASH!!! YAY!!

Currently Playing Crossfade By Crossfade see related

- Cold

Hey everyone, Well nothing too much has been going on. After the whole situation with Sam I realized that shit happens....I mean I aleady knew that, but now I realize it more then ever. I went to the open interviews at IN and OUT that is opening up here and he said that they would call me back if they wanted to hire me. Hopefully I get it. It's fuckin $8.25 an hour!!! When I got home though, I got a phone call from Gottschalks stating that they wanted an interview with me, so I called them back and I have one tomorrow at 11 A.M, so i'm pretty positive that i'll have a job by the end of the week. YAY for me, it's really good because I really need the money, because I am loosing the rest of my weight and I need to save all my money so I can get an awesome new wardrobe before school gets back in after Christmas break. I also need to get a new desk and a system upgrade for my computer so I can have the internet in my room and I can talk to people  and write in here without my mom breathing down my neck and asking me who i'm talking to all the time. I love my mom but she is kinda protective in that sense, in anything else she is so cool. On another note, I started a profile and account on Gothicmatch.com and I'm meeting alot of cool people. Yeah, I have a new obsession and you might have been able to tell with the last entry in which I stated that I would do it with any guy who looked like Brandon Lee in the crow....yeah I am having a goth/vamp obsession. I am reading so many more gothic/vamp erotica books, then regular erotica/romance books I was reading. See yes, I do like porn, but I like reading it so it can be in my own imagination and I can picture it...not where I see it  and i'm just like...umm ok...insted of asking questions like..."how does she get in that position?" and shit like that...lol I seriously to ask questions when I see porn. I can imagine it myself in books, so yeah, it's better, everyone should read it, especially the Goth/vamp ones...OH MY GOD ARE THEY SO HOTT!!!! The best writer I believe for it is Alex servinervine....(i think that's how you spell her name) she is sssssssssssoooooooooooo goood. Ok well i think I am done now, I'll write back later. CIAO!!!

LOOK i took a new picture of me...I think it's hott

 I think I look good, well if you knew me before, you would too!!! Lol I look like a dike (sp?)

Currently Playing Issues By Korn see related

- Make Me Bad

Mood:   Bitter

Hello all, well alot of crappy things have been going on. well ok, not really, just one HUGE one that isn't fair at all. Ok, you know how i said i have a boyfriend named Sam, yeah he lives in Oregon and we were planning on having him come down yesterday and have him stay for a little bit because he is going through so much up there and it seemed like her needed a break. So, we kept on asking and asking and asking and only getting an "I don't know" or "I'm thinking" or some answer in that range, We kept on keeping good spirits about it but I'm pretty sure both knew what was coming. So, anyways, he finally found out at like 12:00am in the fucking morning and calls me and I knew by his voice that he wasn't coming. He said they all got in a huge fight and all this shit and now I feel really bad because I was bugging him to keep on asking and coming up with all these ways he could ask his aunt. So yeah I feel like shit. I just hope that the time goes by fast because no matter if he comes down anytime soon at all or not I'm going up there for christmas break because I deserve it, and so does he, I swear i don't car if i have to sleep in his car I will go up there. OK so obviously we are both in a mood to where we want to just run away and escape from everything, so on friday after he called I wrote in my "real" journal, a poem. here it is.

                 *~*One Last Look, We Say Goodbye*~*

I hear you breathing on the other end

Our conversations of laughing and fun seem long has been

I dream of your touch,

your sensual breath upon my skin

Do not worry, my love, we will be together again

I have to laugh and I have to smile

Because angels never cry

I'm so sick of all this lying

Let's pack the car and let's just leave

I don't ever want to wake up from this dream

Sitting together in the front seat,

hand in hand, we shall flee

I look at you,

we look to the sky

With one last look back,

we say our last goodbye

Ok, yeah that's the poem. That's how we feel, and that's prolly what we will be doing anytime soon. Ok, well i don't think there is anything else to say, so I shall you leave you today.

Quote of the day: "Forget this life, come with me, don't turn back your safe now, unlock your heart, drop your guard, no one's left to stop you now" ~Evanescence "Anywhere"

I would so do it with any guy who looks like this....OMG HE IS SOOO HOTT!!! (Sam should look like him....omg *~*good thoughts*~*)